Hi.
So it just seems that in between my posts, I just roll up in a ball of confusion. Lately life has been super de duper confusing. I might as well begin with the most confusing issue that quite frankly cannot be ignored right now.
What is a God pleasing relationship?
I don't know. No one seems to. Which has led to what happened yesterday. My boyfriend said that he felt that we should stop kissing. (SIDE NOTE: Sometimes I say things and then I ask myself where the heck the strength to say that came from) Without even thinking, I said "Okay." Now let me tell you, this is a crazy concept for two people who have been dating for almost a year and a half. In my head, it's basically become a game. Can we win? I don't lose, so there really isn't an option. :)
Would I have suggested this myself? Mmmmm... probably not. Yes, I have considered it, even read books about it but my own selfishness tends to come first. (Which is not good!)
Was I gonna argue about it? Not a chance. Though I may not agree or understand 100%, I knew in my heart that he is probably right. A friend asked me if I was going to hash it out since the Bible says that women should submit to their husbands (interpreted as boyfriend) and that's that. It is not my place to argue about this, but rather to agree and accept what he feels.
PLOT TWIST.
Today we were discussing it again and he said that he had been rethinking it and maybe it was okay to kiss.
So basically, we're just two confused twenty year olds that are crazy in love, and we don't know what to do about it. That's a pretty accurate summary.
And then there is the little bump in the road of my career uncertainty. I have really been feeling a little tug lately that I want to be like a children's director at a church. Or a librarian.
So there's that.
Love,
LHDK
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