Tuesday, December 31, 2013

So I decided to make New Year's Resolutions?

Hello, hello, helllooooo!

As 2013 comes to a close, I have really no choice but to think about all the blessings that I have experienced this year. So many wonderful things, so many wonderful people, and so many wonderful examples of God working in my life. 

As another year comes around, I decided to make a few resolutions this year. Of course, I want to exercise and eat healthy, but I'm gonna skip those this year and try to come up with a few things that are more meaningful and perhaps may benefit other people besides myself. 

New Year's Resolutions for 2014:

1. Do more things to brighten people's day. For example, if I get great customer service, I'm going to call up the place and tell the manager. 

2. Never raise my voice. (I know this is a gonna be a toughie, especially in the time I spend at home.)

3. Make a better habit of making time for God in my life.

4. When I say I will pray for someone, I want to actually consciously take the time away and do it. 

5. Do something cool and out of the ordinary. I don't know what this is going to be, but I want to do something kinda crazy, something out of my reserved character. 

I'm sure there are many things that I need to strive to do in the upcoming year, but I'd say five is a solid number.

January 2, 2014 REVISED
I have two more things to add.
6. Develop my housewife skills
7. Run a 5k. 

Happy New Year!

♥LHDK

Saturday, November 16, 2013

So I decided I'm ready for the next phase?

'ello!

Okay, first of all. Every time I hear the word "phase" I think of the three years that I spent in braces. Phase 1 and Phase 2. I had some messed up teeth, so these phases may (or may not) have repeated at least twice. 

Anyway, not that my braces are interesting or this post will be either, but that's not the phase I am thinking about. This idea or concept has probably been brewing for awhile now, but I feel like I am ready for the next step of life of being on my own. My first year of college, I was always counting down the days until I could go home and see my family again. I was like that at the beginning of this year a little too, but lately I have definitely not felt that "need" to go home. With a month long Christmas break approaching, I can't say I'm crazy excited to be home for a whole month. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my family to pieces. I am still excited to see them and can't wait to laugh and share stories with them. It's just that I feel like I am ready to let go of the rope that ties me to them. I am ready to be on my own. In an essence, I am since I'm a college student. 

Another thing that may be adding to this feeling is my desire to get out of this one room dorm room. I can't complain too much, I don't mind living here. It has a lot of perks, but I live in one room and share a bathroom with 50 other girls. My kitchen table is my bed or my desk. Privacy is non-existent. I just want a TV and a couch. That last part sounds a little crazy, I know.

Also, since this little enlightening, I really want to go on a mission trip. I'm also thinking about this summer, and I just wanna do something that is awesome. Something that's more empowering than working at a donut shop. Just some ideas... 

But what do I know? A crazy little college girl with no income can't just do whatever she wants. 
They'd call that girl Loco Cocoa. I'm gonna pray about it, and if anyone reads this: can you say a quick prayer for me too?


Love, 

LHDK

Sunday, November 10, 2013

So I decided that Sunday is like a day of love?

HEY.

There's something about Sundays. I kinda like 'em. 
Aside from the fact that it's the day before the dreaded Monday, Sundays always seem to be a day full of love, like Valentine's Day only not quite as awful?

I love going to church on Sundays.
I thought today's service was absolutely wonderful. Inspiring songs and an impacting message make for a great hour and a half. I love the church that I go to here on campus. I get so much more out of it than I do from my church back home. 

I love family. 
Back before this whole college thing, my mom's side of the family used to have Family Game Nights on Sundays. I always think of Sundays as the day for family, for spending time together and relaxing. I long for those days back, but I know it's possible that those are gone (at least for awhile.) I hope that when I have my own kids, perhaps we could have the whole family gathering on Sundays again. I FaceTimed my family tonight though, just to say hey.

I love love. 
This may not be a regular Sunday thing, but today I've really noticed other people's love for each other. One obvious one was that one of my friends posted a song on Facebook that her fiance wrote for her titled "Love, Love, Love." It was adorable and so cute to hear him express his lasting love for her. Another love thing was today in church, the speaker was telling a story about his parents' marriage and how they always struggled. About 7 years ago, they found out that his mother was cheating on his dad. But instead of ending their marriage and calling it quits, it has made their marriage so much better. I think it is so awesome to see a couple be that committed to each other and take those vows that they made seriously. I think it such an inspiration and proof that you can do that. That's what I want. When I make that vow, that's gonna be it. 

I just have a memory of Sundays that might be why I like them, I don't know. 
Before my brother was born and my parents were still married, sometimes on the way home from church, we would go to Burger King and get our lunch. We would go through the drive-thru and then my mom would let me hold the bag. I was allowed to eat one fry on the way home/ Let's be honest, I snuck a few fries. Sometimes they would be really hot so I would hold the fry out the window to cool it down. I laugh thinking about my long haired, chubby cheeked self dangling a fry out the window of the backseat of our silver Intrepid. Good times, good times. 

Happy Sunday!

Love,

LHDK



Wednesday, October 23, 2013

So I decided my life is one big bundle of confusion?

Hi. 

So it just seems that in between my posts, I just roll up in a ball of confusion. Lately life has been super de duper confusing. I might as well begin with the most confusing issue that quite frankly cannot be ignored right now.

What is a God pleasing relationship? 

I don't know. No one seems to. Which has led to what happened yesterday. My boyfriend said that he felt that we should stop kissing. (SIDE NOTE: Sometimes I say things and then I ask myself where the heck the strength to say that came from) Without even thinking, I said "Okay." Now let me tell you, this is a crazy concept for two people who have been dating for almost a year and a half. In my head, it's basically become a game. Can we win? I don't lose, so there really isn't an option. :) 

Would I have suggested this myself? Mmmmm... probably not. Yes, I have considered it, even read books about it but my own selfishness tends to come first. (Which is not good!) 

Was I gonna argue about it? Not a chance. Though I may not agree or understand 100%, I knew in my heart that he is probably right. A friend asked me if I was going to hash it out since the Bible says that women should submit to their husbands (interpreted as boyfriend) and that's that. It is not my place to argue about this, but rather to agree and accept what he feels. 

PLOT TWIST.

Today we were discussing it again and he said that he had been rethinking it and maybe it was okay to kiss. 
So basically, we're just two confused twenty year olds that are crazy in love, and we don't know what to do about it. That's a pretty accurate summary. 

And then there is the little bump in the road of my career uncertainty. I have really been feeling a little tug lately that I want to be like a children's director at a church. Or a librarian. 

So there's that.

Love, 

LHDK

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

So it's a mixed up kind of day?

Hello.

Tonight I skipped my small group, ate two donuts, and then I just cried. 
Sounds to me like I'm spiraling down into a deep hole of utter despair...this didn't occur to me until I began to write this!

So here we go.

I know I shouldn't have skipped my small group, but the only reason I go anymore is because I know that is the right thing to do. Last year, I had an incredible small group and this year just simply isn't standing up to that. When I go, I always look at my watch and want to know how much longer it will be until we can leave. Last year, we would talk and talk for hours and I never cared about the time. It's not that I don't love Jesus and I don't want to grow in my faith, it's simply that I'm not getting what I want out of it. I should really pray about it and stop complaining.

The donuts. Well, my roommate wanted donuts so we got some and we each ate two. The end. 

And the cause of my tears... When I was 7th grade, my youth pastor was killed in a car accident and tomorrow is the 7 year anniversary of that happening. Just reading people's posts on Facebook made me tear up and realize many things. One is obviously that life is so fragile and can be taken away so fast simply by driving to work in the morning. That's kinda scary. Also, it saddens me to think that his children will never know and remember him as their father. It just breaks my heart. There's a Garth Brooks song called, "If Tomorrow Never Comes," and one of the lines is "If tomorrow never comes, will you know how much I love you?" This really makes me more conscious of how I act towards people when I leave them. If I don't say I love you to my parents before I leave or they leave, I never know if that will the last time I get to say it. It also spurs me sometimes to just randomly text people and tell them "Hey, I think you're a really great person and I'm glad you're in my life." Because you simply never know... 

Amor,

LHDK


Wednesday, September 25, 2013

So I decided that I should proofread my posts?

Welp, this is embarrassing. 

I have been repeatedly signing my name with the wrong initials. 

LHDK.

LHDK.

LHDK.

LHDK.

Okay, I think I got it now. 





Saturday, September 7, 2013

So I decided that I am a jenk blogger?

Whaddddupppp. 


So I decided that I should really blog more often. Not that anyone even reads this, I'm aware of that. It's all good. It feeds my need to let some stuff out and gives an artificial feeling that people care. Ha that just sounds depressing. It's really not.

It's been longer than a month since I last posted anything, not surprised. So much has happened since then, it's awful crazy. Starting school back up has definitely made my life about 700x crazier than it was over the summer, but that's okay. It keeps me busy and out of trouble! :)

The last month has definitely been filled with some struggles, both big and small. But that's okay. What is life without a few little speed bumps or sharp turns? These have really assured me of something that I thought I already knew, and quite frankly that's pretty great. I believe that God uses tough situations to help you out sometimes, and that's pretty stinkin' cool. 

I've been trying to channel my inner social butterfly this semester. Not an epic failure, but it's not like friends are crashing down my door to hang out with me. In fact, I just watched 5 episodes of Parks and Rec, decided I should do something constructive so I watched wedding proposals. Hellllllloooo world, I'm here and ready to party! ;) 

My coffee addiction is for real now. I need my daily caffeine or proper functioning does not occur. 

Oh! And I had a birthday! My first birthday away from home. That was weird.

My laundry is waiting for me. Don't want these goofy college kids to steal it from me! My teddy bear shirt only looks super cute on me!

Peace out, girl scout.

Love, 
LHDC

Sunday, August 4, 2013

So I decided that I've been wrong?

Aloha!



So I stumbled upon a blog written by a young woman on Facebook after someone I don't think I've actually ever met shared it. It was titled "My Husband Is Not My Soul Mate." Now I'm not married, nor am I engaged, but this topic (and all other topics relating to weddings, marriage, and relationships) intrigues me so I took the time to read it. When I first began reading it, I was like "Whoaaa, this girl is nuts. Of course God has made one single person for me in this entire world and this man is meant to be all mine!" With some thought and a little reread, my viewpoint was being challenged. It's the fairy tale we've been told since we were little girls playing with Barbies, someone out there is "the one." Let the hunt begin! But never in the Bible does God say that this is true. Like the author of this blog said, instead God has given us choices in our lives that have led us to the man or woman that we will choose to marry. There are so many people that we are compatible with, hello that's why we date so much. It depends on the timing and the mutual attraction.

All I know is that when I read this post, my views were thrown askew and I've been thinking about it a lot since then. Another thing that she points out is that Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Again, I was completely taken a back. But upon further research, I have found that I have never taken the time to read the context for the verse. God still carries out His promises and I do firmly believe that God knows every single thing about our lives. He knows who I will choose to marry, He knows the names of my future children, He knows what I am going to eat for breakfast tomorrow, but yet He allows us to choose which path we are going to take whether it be something huge or something small.


Here is the link to the blog that I mentioned earlier: My Husband Is Not My Soul Mate

Her other blog posts are wonderful, take the time to read them if you get a chance.




Hasta,

LHDC

Thursday, July 25, 2013

So I decided that I need to not wish for time to go faster?

Hola amigos.

For as long as I can remember, I have always wanted time to go faster. Each school year is always "How many more days until the end of the semester?" My first semester of college was a total countdown because I was in a long distance relationship. 27 more days until we could see each other. Only one more weekend. Yadayadayada. Now I'm like I want to be done with my job. (4 more days!!) I want college to fly by so I can see how my future turns out. 

BUT THIS IS ALL WRONG.

One year of college has already blown by and certainly the next three are going to zoom by even faster. I was thinking about it and these really are the best days of my life. I'm sort of on my own, but really my parents are still supporting me. Let's be honest, my mom still does my laundry. I have the freedom to do what I want with the comfort of knowing that if something terrible happens, I'm not alone. It won't be long and I'll be begging for these days back. 

With this in mind, I am going to try to start living each day as a valuable day, rather than 24 hours closer to something else. It's impossible to know whether today or tomorrow will be my last, and so I think that it's important to live each day for the glory of God. I want each day to be filled with productivity, compassion, and lots of love and laughs. 

See ya later alligator, 
LHDC

Friday, July 12, 2013

So I decided that I never want to get divorced?

Howdy folks.

It's not like I just decided this today or anything, but today it's really just ringing true because of a couple of things.
For one, my dad recently got remarried, and I have been struggling with no longer being his number one gal anymore. I'm upset by being number two when I've come to see myself as number one since I was about 12 years old. I feel like only time is going to heal this because I can't really do anything about it. Someone told me in a text today that the only thing I can do is make sure that I don't let this happen to my future family. I sure as heck want to make sure that my own children are never torn apart by the issue of divorce. I feel like I, along with other people, who have experienced divorce value and give even more extra attention to marriage. The man I will marry someday is going to be my husband until the day that we die.
For two, today at work two of my old neighbors came in. This man and woman have been like a third set of grandparents to me at many times during my life. They are the sweetest people I have ever met. In our conversation, they told me that they will be celebrating their 61st wedding anniversary next week. WOW! I just wanted to give them big hugs and congratulate them. WOW. That's really all I can say. What love and devotion those two have shown and still show each other 60+ years later. I hope and ask God that he would bless me with a love like these two wonderful people. We also had another customer at work who said it was he and his wife's 42nd anniversary today. May God bless these wonderful people.
And finally for three, I had a chat with one of my lifelong friends today who is preparing to get married, and I can just see the glow in her eyes when she talks about her fiancee. I've decided that "when you know, you know." You could date for 5 months or 5 years, and when you know this is the one, you just know.

I hope that this post finds you well and in love. ♥

Love,
LHDC

Monday, July 8, 2013

So I decided disappointment sucks?

Well, folks. So much for my daily blog. It's been 4 whole days! 
In the last 4 days, I have discovered something about myself. I've discovered that I do not handle disappointment well. Like at all. 
I'm one of those people that is like "Oh yeah, it's totally fine." I'm a "It's all good." kinda person even when it's not. I just get excited about little things and then they don't end up happening. And what do I get? A crank butt girl who just needs to get over herself. 
In other news, 4 inches of my luscious long hair has been hacked off.
It's been rainy and cloudy like everyday for two weeks and it's getting me down. Lame sauce. 

That's all I got.

-LHDK

Thursday, July 4, 2013

So I decided to start blogging?

Well hello there.

So today I was just like "I'm gonna start a blog." And so here we are. I don't expect that anyone will ever even read this, but hey it's an outlet for my thoughts which is exactly what I need sometimes. I can only rant to so many people about so many things. My problem is though that I can't really say like personal things about people or situations because what if they read it? So be ready to read between the lines and decipher my codes. Again, I doubt no one will ever read this so it doesn't really matter.
I feel like the name for this blog is absolutely perfect for me. Of course, there's a funny story behind it. I follow "Long Hair Don't Care" on Twitter and so sometimes I would say the line just because it rhymes. Well one day I said "Long hair don't know" and I realized it fit me perfectly. I have long hair and I don't know a lot of things. If you read this (and I have stick with writing it) you'll find that out very quickly.

Also, I'm like totally stuck on the Country Romance station on Pandora.
Now Playing: Don't Laugh At Me by Mark Wills

Welp, I have to go to a homeless shelter now.
Not even kidding, that's where I'm going.

HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!

Love,
LHDC